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My bro sent me this video though & it made me feel loads better, keeping me motivated. I swear I love him to death (He’s not blood but blood coulda neva mek us any closer)
I must say, through all that I’ve been dealing with these past few months my friends and fam have been truly amazing. Today I had a break down of some sort. I say of some sort because it wasn’t my usual break down. (I did cry in my house, on the train and on the bus while talking to random ppl & reflecting though smh) It was as if everything that occurred in December officially hit me today when I saw that I couldn’t reapply to my old colleges nursing program until 5 years from now. I’m sorry but what the fuck kind of policy is that? Who puts that kind of crap in place and why?? What’s gonna change about me in 5 years except the fact that I’ll be more determined (side note: I already am) & I’ll have forgotten every damn thing they taught me already -__-. I really don’t understand the system of nursing school or the world of nursing school entirely.
But yeah, I had me some type of breakdown today, but I also reached out to people I knew that cared about me. Something I don’t normally do. I posted a stat on FB (only visible to 25 people) & I started to get phone calls. I was honestly shocked out of my ass because I wasn’t expecting that & def not 1 minute after I posted it. Outside of that friends and fam started commenting with really uplifting and supportive words and I was still down but their support started to replant the positive seeds that I needed in my mind.
I texted my still (#1 supporter even if he doesn’t realize he still is) and I took in everything he and everybody told me.
I don’t know, right now I’m no longer planning a wedding and this week I didn’t have to babysit m cousins a lot which was a huge weight lifted. The fact that I finally got to relax this week for the most part anyway & I had nothing to occupy my mind opened a door for the devil to get busy on me and after reading that 5 year policy, he started to break through to me. I’m grateful for all the people that snatched me right back though because they started working on patching me right back up. I can’t give negativity and the man downstairs power over me. I gt keep my faith. I have to stop, breathe and think. & most importantly I gt trust God.
I still feel like I’m sitting around doing nothing right now so I’m busting m behind tryna find a job in healthcare but otherwise I’m tryna trust Him and just be easy.
I’ve been meaning to do an update video but there’s so much going on right now I barely have time to sit down anywhere long enough to make one sooo I remembered my Tumblr and figured I’d post here lol
So, in March I will be starting an LPN program, thank God for blessing me with the opportunity. When one door closes, another one opens and I’m grateful for the opportunity. I’m not going to publicly disclose the name of the school, if it is something you’d like to know and are interested in you can always email me or message me here or on youtube. I should be finished with the program by the end of the year as long as everything goes well.
The reason I am doing an LPN program which essentially is me going backwards (Kinda sucks) but I’m doing it because right now I am back home and no longer dorming and I am 21 and the job stability for me is needed. There aren’t any schools that will accept my transfer credits because every nursing program is different, so while they will accept my Gen Ed, my fundamentals, Peds etc won’t be accepted. That being said, I have to do an RN program all over which will take about another 2 years of schooling. That’s fine, what is to be will be but in the mean time I can’t just sit around living off my parents and family members. So I’m going to do this LPN program so I can have my foot in the door of my nursing career as well as having a stable job and then continue to pursue my RN.
The school that I am going to is almost like a trade school. They offer different programs and it is more expensive than my previous school but an education costs money and I have always been taught that my education is essential. I firmly believe in that so whatever it takes to get that, I will invest my money into it.
That’s pretty much what’s going on with me right now regarding school. Just wanted to update you all. Thank you for your prayers and support and I hope that God continues to bless all of you. Remember don’t lose faith in Him or your capabilities and if it’s for you, It can’t and won’t be for anybody else.
Lots of love,